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 i feel like i have a million profound things to say...

   but i really have nothing. 

   sometimes i have moments where i have to take a step back and remind myself that this is my life now. sometimes i get in this pathetic mindset where i'm thinking of all that i've given up. 

  today i had a moment..

  i stepped back and had that "this is my life" thought. 

  but today it was different. 

  today it was fun. 

  for the first time i wasn't apathetic. 

  i realized i haven't given up anything, 

  but rather God has given me the opportunity to do so much more. 

  wow... He loves us. oh, how He loves us. 

  

this is my life. 

     i have a smile on my face, 

      the peace of God in my heart, 

       and more excitement than ever in my life. 

this is God. 

 

  i am changing, 

  less and less asleep.

   made of different stuff than when i began