wild, wild west...
will smith?
anyone? ok...anyway...
can i be real with you?
ok, good.
today anna, ashley, caed, and i went to the campus of elon here in burlington to hand out cards and spread the word about trailhead church.
you can imagine how intimidating it is as a 22 year old to walk around a college campus trying to tell students my age about Jesus.
that's terrible. i realize that.
i glued myself to ashley's side and walked around with cards in my back pocket as she smiled and handed them out. things were going great! ashley was getting all good reactions, and it didn't really even occur to me that i wasn't doing anything at all. i would occasionally smile awkwardly to an oncoming student that i could've easily handed a card. i remember ashley looking at me at one point and mentioning that all her pride was gone. it didn't phase me at all.
after about an hour, we had to drive to a nearby gas station for a potty break and i thought we were off the hook. an hour was productive...let's go home, right? wrong. we headed back to campus and i found myself back in the plaza with ash. this time she was on the phone...and i could no longer glue myself to her side. i mean i guess i could've, but i would have looked ridiculous. well, more ridiculous than i already did.
my first reaction was anger. why was she on the phone anyway? this was way more important. (what crazy stupid thoughts we have when we let pride step in) i childishly stomped away and down the sidewalk and walked past at least 10 students before i realized what on earth i was doing...
i stopped, took a deep breath... and thanked God for salvation and the opportunity to share it with others.
why am i telling you this? i have no idea...because it's embarrassing. it's so easy to let pride get in without even knowing it's there. how ridiculous that i would be ashamed of the One who gave me life.
Jesus is my heartbeat.
He is everything and so much more.
oh how i take it for granted everyday.
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